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This is a reply to the anonymous 'comment' that had been left at the end of this entry: http://yukihotaru88.livejournal.com/6040.h
Firstly I would appreciate whoever wrote this comment to come forth and leave their name. Remaining anonymous is a bit silly when there are only 3 possibilities of who the writer was. I do not want to get into a fight with anyone nor do I want to lose friendships over this but I must have this cleared out to save bad feelings for later.
This is my personal live journal, it's a diary and journal of my personal thoughts and feelings, I had actually left out somethings I felt that day because it's personal. However if anyone wants to comment on why I shouldn't have felt the way I did. I do not expect everyone to find what I said to be pleasing; I do not intend to please anyone with my own thoughts. These were emotions I felt that day, I cannot go back and alter my feelings, and I cannot alter my thoughts in hindsight. If you have valid reasons to why I shouldn’t have thought the way I did then I would appreciate it if you laid it all down in front of me and tell me clearly.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
blank
omake of my boys from the day XD Post beach photos...
Cain: why are you STILL taking photographs *groans*
Aka:I kinda like it you know...
Cain: I don't like spending the day with this idiot here *points to aka* But the day on the beach was fun. I got to meet Verity ^^ Sweet girl, glad she liked the gift.
Aka: Yeah yeah. Still remind me again, why did you send a small girl a Valentine's present? You paedo.
Cain: I AM NOT!?!?!
Cain: you know, I don't like you.
Aka: Duh. As I dislike you also.
Cain: glad we agree on something.
Aka: you wish.
two of a 'kind' ? Who's better? El vs. Breakaway XD
The rest of the photos are here: http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showth
I'll be updating Cain's livejournal tomorrow! It's eden-tenjou.livejournal.com, please drop by to take a look at his rant XD
- Location:Tynemouth & front garden
- Mood:
impressed
Cain & Akatsuki
Cain: Why oh Why are you taking more photos?
Aka: I dunno, I like it actually...
Ah so the planned doll meet was today. Everything did NOT go according to plan. AT ALL. Firstly Alana and Sakura can't make it today. It was fair seeing as the two still had exams, exams are the most important. It was too short notice for Layla to come. Kay wasn't informed and Lauren (Tama) had some work for her Art Exam to do so it was acceptable too.
So, Me, Shy, Shido, Taru, Loli and Adae went to Tynemouth.
It was a brilliant day. It was sunny. It was windy and sand kept being blown towards the doll. Luckily I remembered an umbrella to shield the dollies from the horrible sand and UV invested sunlight XD Anyways it was a good day out. Tiring, but that's only because I stupidly worked 30 hours this week XD Well at least the money is going towards a body for Xian, buying Yue or a new camera. So all is win.
My feet are aching. I was supposed to go over to Dawn's tomorrow night but I'm too tired, I can't risk the 1 and half hour bus ride there. As much as I want to take Akatsuki to Alnick Gardens I can't be bothered. He can go next week.
- Location:Tynemouth Beach
- Mood:
tired - Music:I got nerve - Miley Cyrus
2008. When the big ben struck midnight on the 31st December 2007 I thought I would be leaving a terrible year behind. I didn't exactly have the best year in 2007, exams were terrible, I physically broke down at least twice. Many many things had happened. In real life and on the internet. I thought 2008 would be a year to remember. One where everything would be better. How wrong was I?
In 2007 I left behind terrible memories and fears for my parents health. I was ready for a brand new start. A new beginning. This year has definately been one of the worst so far in my 20 years of life and it's not even half over.
First I wanted to address the issue of the Earthquake in China. Before I start I must say I'm pretty disgusted with some people on DoA. There was a thread concerning about the Earthquake and soon the people were talking about delays of their 'precious dolls.' No concern for the people, the living breathing people in China. But their stupid dolls! Yes it's a doll board but seriously have some concern people. Have a heart. It disgusts me and made me even more skeptical about mankind.
Why am I so emotional about it? It's a 7.8 Earthquake. So far in the last 30 hours or so there are at least 12,000 people dead. Hospitals collapsed, schools collapsed, bridges, streets, cliffs, mud, rain. This is the second large natural disaster this year for China. This is not China's year. Not at all. At the start of the year, the huge snow blizzare that trapped thousands of people. The stupid Tibet riot. In my opinion it's stupid. It's pathetic, why can't the likes of America keep their big noses out of other countries buisness. They want to establish a USA assembly in Tibet to arrange negotiations with China. Negotiations my fuck. Stay in your own little country and keep your big fat nose out of other people's businesses.
This year was meant to be Beijing's year for the olympics. If this was the price to pay to hold the olympics then I don't think it's worth it. Nothing is worth this torment. I actually found out my own auntie had taken my two baby cousins up to that region 2 days ago. That's her hometown. How afraid was my family if anything happened to them. Luckily they were too far away so wasn't affected much, only some slates off the roof. They had arrived 2 hours prior to the Earthquake. You can't believe how thankful I am for their safety. As I sat and watched the short news report documentry on T.V My heart cried silently for the people. Watching the parents cry for their children whom was crushed by the school building was crippling. This one woman was waiting for the rescuers to save her father from a collapesed building. Day and night she stood in the rain. Finally he was bought out from beneath the ruins. But he had already left her. Watching her cry in hysterics unable to accept the truth, the way her husband clung onto her to calm her was heart wretching. 12,000 people. 12,000 innocent lives lost due to mother nature.
This is the time I fear nature itself. I take a very Romantic Period approach to nature. Nature is beautiful and breathtaking. Yet it is fearful and lifetaking. How this is something subordinate to the likes of those peoples 'dolls' I'll never understand. I don't want to understand. Those 'people' in my eyes have sunk to an all time low. Ruining of the company seems more important than the shipping delays that would cause them inconvience. So why are they so selfish? Why are they so ignorant to the value of human life. If I could I would do anything to help. But all I am able to do is sit here and write this. All I could do is sit and prepare for my first year exams. It makes me feel so pathetic. It makes my problems seem so trivial.
The worst thing is I got a bad feeling there are some places where they are not sympathetic to what happened in China. They probably will turn a blind eye on the situation. Mankind are selfish beings it does seem. As I sit here and silently weep for these people, somewhere out there are people who are thinking this serves them right and call them all the name beneath the sun. I might not be someone who promotes loving my country loads. I can not say I've ever been a Chinese Nationalist. I don't think I will ever be to be honest. But in all fairness, this to me is a bigger disaster than September 11th with the twin towers. I stand by my belief that I feel sorry for the innocent victims and their families that was affected or killed by 9/11. But I can never be sorry for America. I never did so many years ago, I never will.
To be honest they probably deserved it. Terrorism goes both ways. If you don't do something to other people, they don't do anything to you. All is fair in love and war. Unsurprisingly there are people right now who isn't and never will be sympathetic to this situation.
As they say, until the needle pierces through your skin, you'll never feel the pain.
- Location:At home
- Mood:
crushed - Music:Green Fields of France
Long story short, I'm behind on work work, University work and commission work. Been feeling like trash all week, had an argument with one of my longest best friends (stupid argument) then I got worked up into a mini fit. Had a 'stalker' that kept calling me 'a doll' or 'barbie' that pissed me off big time. An inconsiderate friend that is most annoying and lack of my lovely boy Cain for a week.
Cain had been lost down in York with a customiser to be restrung and to be hot glued sueded. He arrived today! I was really worked up yesterday when I had no internet connection thanks to BT's lovely none working phone line! I needed to pay the person and get in contact. My mum was coming up with the worst case scenrio, 'what if he gets lost?' then I came with the tears. Regret and guilt if I had lost or hurt my lovely Cain because I left him with someone else. Just at that point 'friend B' who is a right idiot sometimes asked me 'how much did he cost' I was WTF!!1DSWQE"! It doesn't freaking matter how much my doll costs! It's only Cain by that default. I can get another CP El and name it Cain and it's still not MY CAIN! Strangely I choose the doll then I design a character on that doll, so yeah Cain is Cain. One and only in a CP El's body. Not another one, this specific one.
Then my stupid plane dilema due to terminal 5 at Heathrow... I'm not even sure if it's possible for us to get to Heathrow to fly to Hong Kong! Looks like we can't check in any luggage either, for the fear of loosing them in the 15,000 bags of luggage in heathrow. Man this week has been crap!
At least my Cain is home now, that's all that matters. Jez is going to Shido's while I'm away, I'm glad he's being taken care of while I'm away. With someone I can trust is always good.
Ah... nothing else to rant. Feeling tired now. Just thought to do a little of the list of dolls I want, strangely they have grown *again*
B&G Sky - Yue Eden-Tenjou - The last of my Eden-Tenjou brothers. A punk, pink wearing boy. bright and cheerful unlike his brothers.
The other 4 are dolls I'm likely never to own but it puts into perspective of how each character looks like and helps me write my story.
- Mood:
cranky
Ah I've been at my wits end for some time now.
Thanks to some luck I was able to make a purchase of a Volks Tony head last week. My Holy Grail in BJDs ^^ (there is also Reisner and now Heath? too) The price was good, he came with default faceup and eyes and was shipped on Saturday.
BUT the tracking page has not budged since he was sent out from Korea on Saturday. I'm really worried now. I had asked the seller to mark the parcel down and I know it can take longer than 3 days to reach England from Korea but I'm really at my wits end!
I really hope Xian would be here as soon as possible and before I go to Hong Kong on the 31st! I'm extrodinarily worried and I don't know what to do... I went through this a year ago too. When I first got Rae. He was lost in the post and it marks exactly one year... Maybe I'm just out of luck? I really don't know what to do. I prey he is safe. I rather have paid the customs than go through this mess at the moment. :(
- Mood:
sad
So every girl wants to feel special and loved right? Well I feel that way too. Since being a kid, I've always been a perfectionist. Granted while other girls dreamt about horses and Knights in shining armour, I was dreaming of cool, dark vampire princes of the night. Every girl can dream right?
I'm not looking for a perfect fairytale, let's face it. That can never happen in real life. Life isn't an easy game. Relationships is a hard game to play. Like Diana Ross's song 'You can't hurry love' love is a game of give and take. So what is it that makes me rant this? Well Cupid must either love or hate me very much!
- Location:home with the boys
- Mood:
uncomfortable - Music:You can't hurry love
Okay this entry is highly pointless and boring. It would make very little sense too.
Ok long story short, I've been wanting to complete my 'YingYang' twins for a while now. I started saving for the Elder twin since the Younger (Cain) had arrived. However between August -> November I made no progress in buying him. Christmas came around and my parents gave me £200 to spend on 'whatever i like' and my uncle gave me £40. So I ended up taking... £180 of that out and with the little money i had left and one more paycheck in Jan to order him.
I ordered on the 4th January 2008 with a face up. He's been confirmed as shipped this morning! *squee* I'm all hyperactive (think fangirl but without the glomping) right now. Sadly my happiness needs to tone down for the weekend.
- Location:at home in pyjamas
- Mood:
ecstatic - Music:my love will get you home - Christine Glass
♠♥♣ ACE of HEARTS Designs ♠♥♣
I'm currently on a very hectic schedule with University so i can be a bit slow on timinings. But here are the details.
Currently I'm working on:
1 x commission top for Nezumi_mouse = 100% SENT!
1 x commission top = 100% (pending payment)
1 x commission outfit = 50%
1 x seams for free outfit = 33%
payment: I prefer using paypal for transactions, but I am also willing to take cheques via post or e-checks, however I will have to wait till these clear before being able to send out your garments.
pricing for the tops:
$15 for MSD top
$20 for SD top
+$3 for cardigans
for simple plain t-shirts it is: $12 for SD and MSDs
I also make DZ mini boy's trousers. price is $15 for a pair of jeans or normal trousers.
time: It can take up to 4-5 weeks to make a top. Highly depdending on the time of year and complexity. I would be away during the 31st March - 15th April so during that time I'll be unable to make anything. I would see to it that all February and March orders are complete and sent off before I leave.
Given that I do not have much on my plate due to real life. I can often make the top within a week or 2 weeks if you desperately need it. We can always work something out.
sizes: Curretly i can make clothes in 2 sizes. SD sized BOYS and Mini BOYS
CP Delf boy size
Bobobie Mini boy size
DZ Mini boy size
will consider:
CP Delf Girl
DoC Girl
DZ BB boy
CP MNF boy
CP SDF boy
DoT Boy
Feburary and March slots:
1. Riceball
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3.
4.
5.
if anything leave me a message or you can alternatly send me an e-mail: yukihotaru@hotmail.co.uk
examples:
commission for Nezumi_mouse on DoA (custom)
commissioned Jeans on BJDIllusions
commission for Ritsura Ki on BJDIllusions
(Limited Red mesh top)
This is X-posted on my other Journal, DoA, BJDIllusions and NoB
Thank you ^^
It turns out that i'm more infamous on Denofdemons that i had thought. I did think there would be a full 'i hate yukihotaru' thread that features about 10 pages of pure dislike. ^^ Technically i deserve it if they did. Surprisingly there isn't, probably a few pages here and there but not enough to make a thread.
I have found out people are:
annoyed with me for writing long posts (which i do admit i write long long posts that makes no sense, so i have to apologise for that)
annoyed with me for my defensive/offensive attitude (I always write, you're inclined to your opinion, i am to mine. Although they're all in the debate forums so i shouldn't be too well offensive)
they don't believe that i am 19 and studying law (due to terrible spelling, personally i use the internet as a form of release so spelling never occured to me as being 'important' and i admit i'm a terrible speller. I honestly don't know how i manage to pass my exams)
well if it makes it all better, people generally ignore me or doesn't find me the worst. But officially there is about 4 people who really dislike me, and definately a handful that is annoyed with me. I'll stop this before it gets too long.
I know we shouldn't care about what others say about you. You can't feel inferior unless you give that person permission to make you feel inferior. I also know sticks and stones may break your bones but words are not meant to hurt you.
In a way, i don't really care what others say about me. It's all their free will. Some people love me, some people loath me. Some people really really hate me. I can come across as a busybody, a 'i think i know it all' but i'm not that type of person. Or at least i never intended to be like that, if that is the impression i give to people then maybe it's my own fault and i should change that behaviour more.
Throughout childhood, i never was a very outgoing person. It doesn't mean i didn't want to. It's just once i get shy i don't talk. People think i'm being cold and leave me alone. How much i did want to play with them or anything but i never knew how to express myself. I'm not very good at expressing myself. I tell it how my brain thinks it the first time. But that seem to get more people hating than liking me.
I can be brutally critical and honest. I know it isn't the best trait in the world and i know i should change but sincerely i don't know how.
After that incident on denofdemons. yes i know i should let it go. But it frightens me. I want to post on that forum to show them the first impression they got of me is all wrong. That i am not that type of person. But i'm too afraid the people hate me there. Yes i know it's the internet, they can't do anything to me in real life and i shouldn't care. But telling me, who has next to zero self-confidence that is harder than moving a mountain.
I live by my own attitude, one that doesn't care what others think. But deep down i do. I don't need them to like me, i honestly don't care about how they feel towards me, i just hate it when i make people hate me. I'm slightly afraid of posting any more things on that forum. I highly doubt i can handle it if people just go in to make comments about what i have said before. Maybe if my confidence comes back i can post in there. I should be writing this all in my personal paper journal but i feel like i need to type things out. My brain flows better, or more or less i rant better when i type.
I was watching the reborn baby program on channel 4 today. It was quite bizarre. Watching those ladies take their dolls out and treating them like real children. Yet i take my dolls out and walk around town with them. But i can't do that on my own. I must have a friend beside me to be able to do that.
All the friends i have made this year, whether it is on the internet or in real life. I cherish very much. Each one of them is like a star to me. Smiling kindness and makes me feel less lonely. Maybe in the summer, i'll take my boys out one night and sit with my brother out in the garden to gaze at the beautiful stars around us. If i can give any advice to people, it would be "Cherish those around you." You don't have to always be talking to each other, you don't always have to meet. As long as you hold each other close that's enough. One of my best friends is going back down to Oxford next week. I'm going to get myself a train ticket and see her at the end of the month or start of Febuary. I just miss her. No matter how long i haven't seen her i never feel like i can't speak to her. Sometimes it's so hard for me to pic up the phone and go "Emmie, i need you." I'm very glad i have Leon and Hikari around me then, it makes life much more tolerable and life more worth living.
More about the reborn babies. I find it sad and beautiful in a way. It's beautiful because it's gorgeous artworks. Each one is a masterpiece. But it's sad because i have seen some women use them to substitute for a long grown up baby. It questions me and my passion.
Each one of my dolls... represent me in a way. Either how i am, how i want to be or what i should be like. I would love to be surrounded by older siblings like Raphael. I love my younger brother and my cousins are all like older brothers to me. But sometimes you need someone older than you to tell you 'everything is going to be ok' you need someone to give you a supportive hug or just something. That's why i created such a relationship between Cain and Raphael.
I always feel like there must be someone else like me out in this world. Someone exactly the same yet exactly different. Cain and Abel was created to be like that. I feel like i pour a bit of my heart and soul into Cain. Cain on the outside seem like a confident person, but on the inside he isn't at all. On the inside he longs for simple things, he longs to be cherished, he does things to get others attention. I think maybe i can be like that too. I sometimes feel like i need to depend on someone. Someone to rely on. Still i haven't met such a person yet. Maybe one day i can.
Asmodeus is never pleased with himself. He thinks he is the worst of all and that no one likes him for who he is. I have felt like that and i still have that feeling sometimes. I sometimes can feel really lonely when i'm alone. I try to hold my dolls near, i place them on my lap so i can feel the weight of them, so everything is more real, everything has more substance. I don't act it once i'm with friends. I feel like a shell sometimes. Like a doll, i keep my happy face on for other people. But inside i am hollow, i cry inside even if i smile on the outside. Maybe it is time i get someone to talk about this. A consellor or a doctor. I don't even know if this is depression i'm feeling. I want to be strong enough to dig myself out of it. I had gotten myself out of anorexia, i wouldn't let depression take me.
It can be tiring weating a mask all the time. I love beautiful things, yet i know they can be rotting from the inside. I wear a mask so people could only see me smile. It is times where i am alone, i start feeling the pain of loneliness.
For now. I know i shouldn't care what those on the forum think about me. But i do worry, what if all of them hate me? what if they only make fun of me? what ifs. Many many of them. In a way, i find some of the people there very nasty. Yet i know most of them are nice and wonderful people. I just don't know if i can bare it again to go somewhere where people misunderstood me and now dislike me because of that. I can choose not to go on. But i keep thinking if i leave now and never go back, i would be a coward.
I think this is all i can take today Journal. I'm making this public for a few days then it'll become friends only or private, depending on how i feel about what i have written.
In my nineteen years of life, i have to face many problems already. I don't even know how the other part of my life would go. Have you felt a betrayal from someone tyou have trusted most of your life? Have you have to suffer from a relatives none stop comments about how short/ugly/stupid you are for all nineteen years of your life? Have you ever have to choose between some friends who love you the way you are and a friend you care about so much that you would do anything for her and yet she throws crap in your face? Depression, anorexia. Parents' cancer scare. Watching your family crumble while trying to retain a 'face' for the relatives? watch your friend make a fool out of herself and ruinning her own life and not being able to do anything about it? I cry each time i see her.
That is the world i grew up in. To some i live in a happy bubble with my dolls, arts, books & toys. I'm stupidly naive to many. Yes that may be true but little by little the bubble is melting away. Reality is catching up with me, i no longer can live within my bubble. Everyday my mask is slipping.
I don't know if i am ready to show the world my true fears, expressions or my true feelings. Only these last 12 months has my parents realised something wrong with me. They never knew until about two months ago. Maybe it is time to take off the mask. I will one day. I will take it off one day and shine again. Right now, my star has gone, maybe with my friends help, it can return one day. That day i can truly smile again.
- Location:in my room
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Moltiva - Desting
2007 is going to go in about 2 hours! I have so much to just leave behind and forget. Firstly i have to say, i realised i made a huge mistake on the pancakegenocide drama. Ok i have to say, i was rude, Out of character and just generally a prat. Although i do remember getting into a huge fight with her and it not ending very prettily i completely let out my anger on her when i previously had another person annoyed the hell out of me about DZ.
Yes i know i shouldn't get angry. Usually i can be reasonable, rereading my private message, i was extremely rude and i know i shouldn't have worded it that way. But what's done is done, it even have a place in their diary entry. I would enter my thoughts on there but i think it's too early to do so.
I sent some Happy New year wishes to people i know on DoA. I left a message on MSN for everyone else to see ^^
Ah i just hope the new year is a good one.
I have to book my driving lesson soon and get ready for
1) exams exams exams in Jan for University. I haven't revised, didn't pay attention in lectures and will bound to get a Fail T_T
2) cosplay costume needs to be ready for the end of Jan as well for the anime society At least i've started now. Need a vast amount of ribbons, red paints and well... anything!
3) Law Ball is coming up too. I need to get a dress sorted. I just feel like renting out a white tux and wearing that to the ball instead.
Currently i also want a Pullip Taeyang. I fell in love with the Butler doll. I would rewig him and make him a whole set of clothes but for now i don't even know how to prioritise my list of dolls. I also found out Fairyland would be continuing the Mini fee Delfs. So that means i might be able to get my Shushu in late 2008/ early 2009. ^^ Oh yes i have things planned already. I definately going to follow.
First this week i need to pay of driving lessons block 4 (man £170/$340 is no fun T_T)and i will be ordering my Older Twin, CP Shine - JezAbel Eden-Tenjou ^^ So excited. I was allowed to order him 4 weeks ago. I received money for christmas so that is paying for 1/2 of him. But i thought i would wait nearer my paycheck so i could pay back my savings or not need to touch savings for the other half. I had $160 sitting around already. After my Shine, i'm getting a Fantasydoll body for Asmodeus then a B&G Sky as Yue. Then i'll have all 3 brothers home. Afterwards i would likely be getting a WS Lishe-ss head to mod and Shushu ^^" and maybe one day a DZ Yuu as well.
I had thought about moving out for 2nd year University. But have thought if i can pass my driving test then i can go and do whatever i want and come home to sleep. Basically i can't afford to pay about $200 on rent per week while there is 9 more things i need to pay for (like, electricity, gas, telephone, internet, council tax, water...) while surviving on a very limited job ($50 a week, 4 hours of work. Oh fun) even if i get $100 of allowance per week... that would not fund my partying with the other uni students. So i'm still debating. I'm going to go to Hong Kong (hopefully) in my fourth year to do my Masters, i would be living by myself then (well grandparents but :P)
Hmmm what else... Oh! I also need to start saving some money for Amecon in August! I'm also going to go to another convention probably in Feb/March to. Need to get 4 cosplay costumes ready AND my dolls cosplays AND some Elegant Gothic Aristocrat clothes sorted out. I got some really great shoes! they can rival Cain's Heise boots of course not as cool. The height of the platform in scale can rival him ^^
Hmmm, maybe i should just leave the "Is her trademark to delete from the internet her stupidity" comments behind. I feel awful for getting the AoD and DZ thing mixed up. But having heard from people that there are people sending out messages saying "If you show up with your DZ frankindolly, i'll smash it up"
Just joining a community, getting my first doll. Then finding out the company's past. Try to tell people the quality isn't bad and the doll is nice... all that landed me with is a deep scar that brands me as a person. I love my Raphael (they also think my doll names are funny T_T well they're named after angels from the bible, i didn't make any words up, i just arranged them) This is the last entry i would make with this. After this i will leave it and move on.
Life's too short to think about anymore of this. I keep this journal so i can express my feelings.
I've adding a part to my story over on Cain's Livejournal Eden_Tenjou, check it out! I'm going to update with little things only, for now at least. 
Cain (black haired El) and Asmodeus (blonde El-ss). Asmo is actually sitting on a home made cloth body i made him. He's waiting to get his resin body in April. When i have a little more money to spare after all the driving lessons and tests.
Yes they are a couple, one is an El and the other is El-ss. I had got El-special so Cain got a spare head. That plan never worked as El-ss looks very different from El. Asmo would be getting his body, his eyes opened slightly, a new face up, tattoos and wings in the next year. Cain... just lacks his military uniform and robes and bright blue soom eyes. That's all
- Location:computer room
- Mood:
content - Music:N.G ~ Sleepless beauty (Gravitaion)
Hi, this is Yukihotaru
This is the livejournal for my cast and story of "The keepers of Eden" My other Livejournal would be personal ranting only now ^^
This journal would be kept by my lovely Cain and he would write in his point of view (as a doll) towards themes, meet ups, photoshoots and other things.
I'll be updating my story "Keepers of Eden" in this livejournal alongside special photoshoots and sketches of the cast. I would be doing some personal ranting in here as well as Cain so watch out for my posts! I hand over to Cain now.
- Location:Home on the laptop
- Music:Disney Prince Ali
Hi ^^ this is a signature i have of all the dolls i want! Ok not the Volks limited but my members of the Tenjou family. It includes, Raphael (Rae) Michael, Uriel & Gabriel the four Archangels. Lucifiel the morningglory angel and the Eden trio Cain, JezAbel & Yue (finally a name!) I'm hoping to adopt at least the other 3 boys after Rae. I really like the look of CP Shine and Abio Angel Yi. No one is stopping me from getting CP El which will be my Cain. Hopefully i can write the plot to the story. Let the battle begin.
Wayhey! I've updated after about nearly 6 weeks.... Rae's been living with me for 5 weeks now and i adore the pants off him!
But my A2 exams start in 5 weeks so i have to get down to do some serious revision so i have to take less time playing with him now.
I've completed my bobobie contest entry and hopefully this livejournal will be up and running soon! In june i will begin a brand new journal dedicated to my boys. I am hoping to get a CP EL so cross ur fingers for me! I'm hoping to bring Cain home before the year ends....
Bad news! I've fallen in love with a list of BJD molds:
CP EL (Cain Tenjou/Eden)
CP Shine (Abel Tenjou/ Eden)
DZ Yuu (Lucifiel Tenjou/ Lucifer Akume)
Volks School A (?)
Volks SD17 Resiner (?)
Volks SD16 Tony (Tony!)
Volks FCS F18 (?)
Dolkot Ryu (Kaoru <3)
DoD Ducan (Uriel Tenjou)
Abio Angels Yi (____Tenjou/Eden)
Angel Studio Cain (?)
Yeah it's a big list considering i only wanted ONE doll.... Now that may change. I desperately want El tho. So i'll be ever so happy to have El as well. Shine... the rest of my list may come when i have a lot of money one day! But i've promised myself one thing... no more than 3! Cos i don't have that mush attention to divide. Rae's got absolute attention right now and i guess i can spilt between 2, 3 is stretching cos 1 is lonely 3's a crowd.
U kno what? I saw the PERFECT doll for Nakashima Kaoru, the uke in my shounen-ai/yaoi couple of Gemini Twins! All i need now is the mold for Anthony. The only thing is Dolkot dolls are 62cm, i haven't found a taller boy that i want for Anthony...
A grand total of 12 dolls on my list! Tho i will only ever own 3... actually there is a shorter girls list but it's too short to share right now. Maybe one day i can meet all my dream dolls ^^
hi! well after my A-level exams i'll have quite a bit of free time on my hands, i'm planning on a part time but still with driving lessons and job i should have loads of nights left over! (most my friends are away...) So i thought why not start some clothing commissions!
I'm not brilliant at sewing but i luv to design. I've done a few things before but not for a doll yet. With Raphael arriving i'm planning to make him clothes, i've brought loads of fabric BUT i always have fabric left over, being on pullipstyle i saw the boys don't seem to have enough 'casual' or much clothings at all! I personally think boys should be dressed up as much as the girls sooooo.... what's better than starting some commissions!
I would be giving some free samples at the start to see the response of ppl, cos i don't own any taeyang or Namu, i might need some help. But the sample free outfits would be a smaller version of Raphael's (DZ Mo) clothes. I will make sure they're ok before selling or giving anyone clothes for their boys ^^"
this is to help out with my resin doll fund but mostly i just luv to sew! hehe i'm going to make things for Raphael already so why not make an extra one for Pullips' boyfriends? The boys are goregous anyway.
Ok anyone who is interested please notify me. I can only do so much after my art coursework is handed in. But there should be samples up and running from next week!
I'm also entering the Bobobie contest (if i get it all finished ^^") so theose outfits would be made too! I have 4 outfits for the contest all planned, i just need Raphael to be my dummy testor ^^" so my works will be up and running soon! i can also sew in school, the teacher allows me to use the sewing machine so no worries on the hand sewn stuff, some would be hand sewn but not much that i will sell.
ok that's all for today! Raphael is not here yet but he will be in the next 2 or 3 days! he can't wait to say hi!
- Location:home
- Mood:
busy
i'm so happy, i can almost forget about my terrible week!
I got my results for my january exams, my AS resits were both B's so i was pleased with my history result. I got a C, not high but i'm crap at history and the surprising thing is i got higher than some usually good ppl in my class! *gasp!*
Argh my D in english literature was a big shock i always get A's in exam... now i have to resit the horrible 3 hour long exam! I've been through worst i sat 4 exams for a total of 6 hours last year. haha i ended with a CCC and a B... well my brain died.
My mum is coming back on Wednesday! yay! i miss her sooooooooo much! she's been gone for 2 weeks and life is not the same without her. I'm gonna give her a massive hug when i come home from school on Wednesday!
My Raphael is shipped! 2 weeks earlier than they told me, they said he'll be delayed but he's only been delayed a few days. i'm so excited! 3 days to a week! i made him a pillow and a duvet. i made a cloak already and i have plans of ALOT of outfits!
haha with my mum coming home and y boy arriving, i can forget about school for a little while!
When he is here there would be major spamming of pictures! well that's all for today! when he gets here i might start another journal for him to use >__< spoilt brat
- Location:at home
- Mood:
hyper - Music:stick to the status quo!
Well this is just a little test but right now i'm currently obsessed with Asian Ball Joint Dolls. I ordered my little boy (he's a 45cm tall mini Dollzone Mowan) on the 29th January, now it's the 5th week i've waited for him.
I'm starting to get nervous now! The only thing is I have my heart set on a a different doll right now, it;s always been that doll but i was an idiot so i thought i'll buy a cheaper one (i luv this doll type but he's 2nd favourite in all the dolls i've seen) but of course i kno i want the much more expensive doll...
I've joint loads of doll forums! There's the junkyspot forum, the dollfie dreams, den of Angels, nest of butterflies and pullipstyle. hehe i'm on a doll high! i've never really been girly i had loads of barbies but i don't know i just want the resin dolls.
I've got my heart set out on a CP El, but i'm getting a DZ Mo. I can't wait for either. I've named my doll Raphael but i'll call him Rae. He's named after the healer angel/ archangel of wind. Right now i would love to recieve El as well i've named him Cain after the Hargreaves count in Godchild. There are so many pretty boys i would like! but i'll be happy with the two of them.
I'm worried, i've applied for about 5 part time jobs but haven't heard back from any. I really want a part time job cos i want to start saving the money for my second and last doll. Yes i'm impatient. It's just i feel terrible that i'm recieving my doll soon and i'm not listening to everyoen and still dreaming of a second doll. I don't know how to feel. I feel sick with happiness that i was allowed to buy him but also sick of guilt from being a brat to get my parents allowing me buy my first boy AND now i want a second doll... but i like them alot. I hope i can convince everyone.
I keep thinking what if they stopped making El before i have the money? What if i buy El but don't bond with him? What if it all wears off when i recieve my Mo? What if i don't treat Mo as i should? there are a hundred questions in my head!
No there is only BJD's in my head right now. Oh yeah! I'm joining the Bobobie Resin Doll clothes designing competition! I've got 3 outfits drawn up, when i refine them i'll post it up for ppl to see. My Livejournal is for me to rant about. I'll be starting another Journal or a website known as "Ace of Hearts" soon that would be dedicated to my doll or dolls if i can get my second one at the end of the year!
Laters!
- Location:Home living room
- Mood:
anxious
